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Delirium Tremens

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3AM
under minor covers
brain and body shudders
self aware the head holes shout
from several years of shaking
self-abuse and neuroLOGICAL
pandering to the ego once lost in
blue fabric nursing chairs
you spend every waking moment
scared of snapping echoes
clapping for performances
no longer adorn, yet dance
among these earthquake dreams
my body shakes
my body screams
I focus on the rhythmic play of
adolescent, gone
forget it
nine to five no
eight to three
why am I so old
rubbish bin overflow
piles of pocket plastic poison
litter the piss stained
floor of false happiness
hidden fears
hidden thoughts
but I digress
piles of precious plastic paid for
distractions, transactions
cover the walls like a smack head's
cavern of plasticine veins
mazes of detour heavy blame
if only the truth were so tame
six, no seven
years of madness
is this why my sad...
bliss escapes me
make it heavy
let it dissolve like my
broken organs
broken piano playing songs
no one will listen to
no one to hear
my near twenty-seven years
three pills every morning
one for the heartburn
one for the heart
one in my head to keep
the wolves at bay
sedation, sedation
no medication
bottles of cerebral chemicals
could keep me sane
I can't even take aspirin for
fear of dying
anxiety becomes first gear
in a manual car where
ninth is
in
the
clear
I'd rather be a hammer than a nail
as they say
namaste
I'm not okay
3AM
chest pains
hand over heart
I pledge allegiance to futility once again
I pump my chest to keep my heart from stopping
I laugh because it's normal
I laugh because I'm so far from it
This is the sequel to Manic Mirror from over 3 years ago.
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